Friday, July 29, 2011 10:32 PM
Brand new start ;D
Hey. I'm really gonna say bye this time round. 旧的不去, 新的不来. This is the only and i believed, it's the best choice ;D
Really very confused bout my feeling with you. I don want to take you as a replacement. How? Is everything gonna work? Both of them appeared in my vision today. But i took more notice on the new one then the old one. Do i really let go alrdy, or i'm just running away? I and confused.
Labels ; If only it's possible. But i know it wouldn't happen. Stop pondering bout it.
Saturday, July 23, 2011 10:24 PM
I actually enjoy myself today.
I want to start a new fresh. And yes, i will. ;D
Tuition as usual. Head-ed over to SunPlaza's Pastamania to had Lunch+dinner. Something wonderful or rather scary happened. Hahah! Talking to T.Qixuan.
Me : Eh! Imagine wht if i am texting him, then he walk pass.
Me : *Stare-d out at the door*
Me : OH GOSH! NOT SO ZHUN BAH!
*3 heros walked pass pastamania
Me and Qixuan : WAHKAO! ZHUN BODOH!
And yes, he walked pass pastamania upon me finishing the sentence. Haha!. Fate? Maybe. But i don really believe this. It may be planned. Because i knew he's in SP and he knew i'm in pastamania. But seeing him was great. He's kinda cute alrights! I swear! hahaha! <3 But this would nvr happen uh. x.x
Basketball was fun ;D Laugh alot yeah. Andnd, run alot too. Tired die me.
Labels ; Wishing upon it to recover soon, but i know it's nvr possible.
Mercy
I want mercy.
So wht? Twenty-two. It's just another sad memory. Yes. Byebye.
You are a total stranger to me.
Labels ; We're living at the mercy of the pain and the fear.
Monday, July 18, 2011 9:25 PM
Time machine
So wht?
Why am i still holding on? Why? Why on earth tht guy still have my heart held with him? I need it back. Please! Different people, different tellings. Which one should i listen to?
One say ; The best way to forget one, is to fall for another one.
But another insist and say it's not the truth. This will only hurt the person.
So wht am i gonna do? Gosh. Study come first now. But your image just stay still in my mind, nvr moved. This doesn't solve the problem. You just threw everything to me and expect me to clean it for you. Hello. This is how you are trying to run away from problems. You just ruin it. You and me. Sorry, i will nvr forgive you. Twenty-second april.
Labels ; Wht is going on?
Sunday, July 10, 2011 9:15 PM
Not anymore
男：十个男人九个坏，一个想作怪。你到底想怎么样嘛?!
女：那我就找第十一个！
Pathetic girl i'm.
Had the strepsils you used to buy for me. I still remember wht happen tht day.
We had sore throat and cough on the very same day. You brought me to bus stop and waited for the bus to come. The bus came. But you left even before the bus was right infront of me. The bus stop infront of me. It was too packed. I couldn't manage to get in. I wanted to gave you a text. But i didn't. I waited patiently for the other bus. Then suddenly you appear next to me again. You said tht you are when over to the Mama shop to get strepsils. Then you took it out, open the packet and pass me 12 lozenges. I rejected it. Telling you i don like to eat Black current flavour. I only eat Honey and Lemon. Then you push it back to me. Telling me to eat it. Then i told you i wont. I would return you the next time i sees you. He replied okay. I when up the bus, i took one lozenges. The tastes remains in my mouth until today.
The day before this. I when over to your house too. Your table had the whole packet of Strepsils Max(Blackcurrent) . Then you heard me coughing, you tried to stuffed it in my mouth, but you failed. You pop it into yours instead. Then you kissed me. The taste of blackedcurrent. It seriously make me cry when i had it in mouth. Everything is bout you.
I started eating tht flavour ever since then.
I almost cried when i was sitting in my father's car today. Hell. I am missing you. Are you?
Can we, can we, can we go back to how we was last time?
Gosh. I am just too naive. This would nvr happen. Atleast in Yanling's life.
Labels ; The other side.
Saturday, July 9, 2011 10:02 PM
Doubt so.
Coloured? I doubt so.
Hey. Who really am i now? I totally cant see the real me. Joke uh! Looking back, i have really really changed. People do change yeah. I'm human. You can, why can't i?
She mentioned bout you. And i really really really want you hug again once more. But is it possible? I doubt so. Even if you are willing to give me one more, i would think twice. I'm afraid i wouldn't let you go once i hugged you.
Sorry, but i'm a selfish girl.
GOSH! He is like super super charming can! I'm just superb obsess with him! If only he don have girlf.
This is the best way to forget you ; Getting myself to love another.
Labels ; Don blame me for being another girl. You force me to.
Sunday, July 3, 2011 10:28 PM
Feeling..
Heh. Joke. I dunno if i should be happy or sad. Yes. So wht if he has unblock me from facebook? I told myself i have to get over with it. But i'm still not. I'm still thinking bout all those stuffs. FML yeah. Seriously.
Something happened today over at sbw. They are just so scary. I guess i will have to keep low, and hide back, and remain the one i'm.
Fuck yeah. Thinking back, i really change alot. I hate who i'm now. You fucking change me. And i fucking hate you. Fuck off from my life.
Labels ; I really really want the real me back.
Cant get over with it
It's just drug. Your addiction to me is too strong. It's clinging on to me, never wanting to let go. I tried my best, i did my very best. But i broke down again yesterday. Yes. I still cannot forget everything. I cant get over with it. I always thought tht if another person were to enter my life, i will forget you easily. But i was wrong. It's gonna be 2 months.. Without your facebook, without your appearance, without your present, without your touch. I always thought tht i am gonna pull through all this, and soon everything will be goon. But. I was wrong.
Really wrong.
He said tht i'm a strong girl. Sorry. I'm not one.
You mention his name yesterday, and everything just change. Sorry. But i'm still not over with it. Don put me with him ever again. Please.
Hiding everything has become part of my life. Just a mask. I'm sick and tired of it alrdy.
Labels ; Boy, would you just fucking scram off from my life?
Friday, July 1, 2011 10:41 PM
Holding my pride high.
Hey.
Now is the stress period i'm having. 8 more weeks and i will be sitting for prelims. And another 8 more weeks tht will be my actual O levels. This is how amazing the time flies yeah!
Things around me seems to change very fast. Nothing seems to be going the way i planned. I guess god had it another way round. But yeah. Go on with life.
I live with pride, and i hold my pride high. This is my principle in life.
Someone use to ask me ; Will you ever go back to your past relationship?
The answer is No. Why bother. Don't break if you wanna go back, don't go back if you wanna break.
Labels ; Please don't change.
男：十个男人九个坏，一个想作怪。你到底想怎么样嘛?!
It's just drug. Your addiction to me is too strong. It's clinging on to me, never wanting to let go. I tried my best, i did my very best. But i broke down again yesterday. Yes. I still cannot forget everything. I cant get over with it. I always thought tht if another person were to enter my life, i will forget you easily. But i was wrong. It's gonna be 2 months.. Without your facebook, without your appearance, without your present, without your touch. I always thought tht i am gonna pull through all this, and soon everything will be goon. But. I was wrong. Really wrong.
