Thursday, November 26, 2009 11:14 PM
Wht would my life be?
[/Second post of the day]
( i just feel like pouring eveything into my blog. It's my blog anyw.)Have you guys ever thought of why your life is like tht and not the way you guys planned. I did. I did, not only now. But always. My brain is always full for questions. Tht's wht teenagers mind are filled with nowadays. Am i right!? We are called the "Y" generation. Because we are always full of questions. WHY this and WHY tht.
Now thinking back, looking at my life in the previous year. The age of Thirteen. I start to ask myself why would i made a choice like tht? Why do i choose tht path? WHY wouldn't i think before acting? Why is my life like tht? WHY!? I ask myself all this ques, not GOD. I ask myself. Back in primary school.. I will have questions like, WHY i nvr study well during my PSLE period? WHY did i got myself into so much trouble during P6? WHY my PSLE results isn't good? WHY WHY WHY? I would often ask myself. My PSLE score came out to be 201. I put WOODGROVE as my first choice. But i ended up in FUCHUN which was like my last choice. Then i will start to ask again. WHY did i place FUCHUN as my last choice? WHY didnt i get 202 or above for my PSLE? Atleast 202 can make me a place in WOODGROVE. WHY was i so stupid? WHY didnt i study hard for my PSLE? WHY!? And, all the fault goes to WHY i didnt study hard for my PSLE.? Then Fuchun life started. It wasnt hard at all. It was like my honeymoon period. Suddenly, basketball enter my life. And, WOODGROVE came. The school i always wanted to get it. WHY? Because of basketball. I am so despo for basketball tht time. But, once i enter into this school, my life change. Change into something which i dislike, something which i wish i could go back to my usual life in Fuchun. Everything change when i was in Woodgrove. Basketball life change, my friends change, my attitude change.. Soon thr are sports leaders, and i am one of them. Then came YTSA, and i am selected, then came the camp, and i am told to go. This is whr i life reallyreallyreally started. My life..... And, it hasnt end yet. I just have to go one more step ahead, and step out of wht is held in my life now. I just have to endure.. God is always behind me, i just have to keep walking and not look back because i knew God is just right thr for me. But questions will still be ASKED. And, ans will be reveal one day. Maybe this is the day you are old, maybe this is the day you die. No one knows. And, i am waiting for this day.. The day tht i am free.. The day tht my questions would be ans. The day whr freedom can be sense.. The day.......
